How is it that one morning
you wake up and a few years of your life have passed and you're left wondering:
where the heck did they go?
Over the past three years
I've had a wonderful son, but I've also grown lazy, become slightly pudgy and
can't seem to shift my fat ass unless it's to get to the fridge (or the
restaurant). Chewing on a banana muffin I am lazily (what else??) asking
myself how is it that in your childhood, days seemed to stretch on forever, in
a "golden haze" and now whole chunks of time, years are just
gone in the blink of an eye? How is it that you can so easily lose enthusiasm
or be defeated by the weight of things that shouldn't, let's face it, be that
heavy after all? It's easy to act as if some evil puppeteer is controlling our
lives (well maybe someone is, like aliens who are using us like human
batteries, sucking up all our energy.... hey, wait a minute, that would explain
it!) but at the end of the day, the only one missing out on the potential party
is yourself or me, in this case.
I wish I were like some of those people who complain that they "just
cannot keep still", you see, these people need, (need!) to be doing
something all the time, to be producing, to be productive, proactive, interactive
and all these wonderful, wonderful things. Sometimes it is a victory for me if
I can drag myself out of bed and take a shower (yes touch of post natal
depression there, but we'll discuss that some other time, luckily for you), it
is a victory if I can go grocery shopping and pick up a jacket at the dry
cleaners, it is a super victory if I can do something creative, like a write a
few pages of my novel, paint, draw, sing, things I used to do normally once
upon a time, before this fear or laziness kicked in.
So here goes, I think it's
just time to GET IT ON! Or rather, to get on with it!
For the next 30 days I am
going to try to.... (big breath) shift weight by doing the Fast diet http://thefastdiet.co.uk/ , tackle the
(in)famous butt challenge, otherwise known as the 30-day squat challenge http://insideeviesbrain.wordpress.com/2013/04/22/the-30-day-squat-challenge/
and get the first (rough) draft of my novel completed, which I also tried doing
in November by joining the amazing November Writing Months http://nanowrimo.org/ ..... I did almost get
there.... but three quarters of the way in I made the mistake of re-reading
what I had written....which was supposedly I big NO-NO.... and that brought on
endless editing and was the beginning of the slippery slope which ends in the
recycle bin on your desk top.
Why only 30 days? Cause I'm
not very good at keeping promises (just like Sting :-) , especially those I
make to myself, so... let's say I want to try and make it less likely for
me to fail (such an ugly word!). Argh, come on! How hard can it be to stick
with a plan for 30 days? Stick around and you'll see....
